As a subjective thinker (as opposed to an objective theorist), you can only believe in what you experience. And so you have to experience everything.

Tertullian:

I believe it because it is absurd. It is certain because it is impossible.

When life became good and death became evil, that is when we stumbled out of paradise. Going beyond good and evil is much more than going beyond god.

Just read this in Irrational Man by William Barrett, something Leo Tolstoy said to Maxim Gorky:

“If a person has learned to think, no matter what they may think about, they are always thinking of their own death. All philosophers were like that.”